I know I’ve been a bit quiet on my blog lately, because I’ve been focusing on my health and my magazine articles. This pregnancy has been the most stressful, physically and mentally; but I thank all my followers for being patient with me. So here’s a bit about what’s been going on since my pregnancy announcement.

At every doctor’s appointment, I hold my breath praying to hear the heartbeat. If you’ve ever lost a child, you know how nerve wrecking ultrasounds can be. I also walk extra slow in the rain, careful not slip and fall. I don’t think this will ever change until I have my daughter in my hand, healthy and breathing.

Losing Old Friends And Gaining New Ones

I’ve actually lost many old friends this pregnancy. I’ve always been the person to help my friends but when they take advantage of that, it’s time to let go. When you become a mom, you really see who cares about you and who doesn’t. When you can’t go out all the time, or when you’re trying to save money to take care of your family and they don’t understand. But for all the moms out there, let me just say this: You are not lame for not wanting to go out. You are a mom. And that’s okay.

I’m grateful for the new friends I’ve gained that have been supportive of me. For my friends that understand that sometimes I don’t have anything to give. Going forward in life, I will remember those who lifted me up in my pregnancy, and forget about those who tore me down.

Book Release

My book is still on track to be released this winter. It’s my most vulnerable work and I’m trying to craft it to perfection. Thank you to everyone that have been patiently waiting for the release. Some people will be mad when it comes out, because I expose a lot of people from my past. To this I say, I do not apologize for speaking the truth. I do not apologize for exposing anyone’s true character.

To Those I Hold Dearly

My family has really been there for me during this exciting time. To my mom, thank you for always having a listening ear. To my sisters, thank you for planning my baby shower. If anyone wants to attend, drop me a quick email and I’ll be sure to send you an invitation. To my father, thank you for showing me that a man takes care of his kids no matter what. To Kason, thank you for taking on so much responsibility. To Ariana and Gerald, thank you for being great friends and never expecting anything from me. And to all my followers, thank you for keeping me writing. You really are my inspiration. Look out for more previews of my book coming in the next few weeks.

Don’t forget to read my articles in NYgal to keep up with more of my writing!

As you may know by now, my first poetry book is coming out this winter. I’m excited to share this vulnerable collection with you all. I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoy writing. To give you a peek of what’s to come, I’m previewing some of my poems for you. Here’s the first:

In Sync

My mother always told me

that the only thing a man can do right

is puncture hearts.

They will whisper the dearest things

in your ear, and place their seed in your belly.

I love you.

For months, that’s what you said.

It’s love.

But you probably said the same to her.

Twenty years later, you’ll learn

that you should’ve listened to your mom.

I care, we just don’t sync as a relationship.

How do we get in sync?

Recently, I made the bold decision to cut my hair. If you know me, I’ve always worn extensions and had hair frame my face. Whenever I did wear my natural hair, I tied it up in a bun so no one could really see it. Ever since middle school, I’ve felt insecure about my hair. Girls would always tell me it’s not long enough or that I needed to straighten it. Fed up with the comments, I convinced my mom to let me wear weaves. I got my confidence back.

Since moving to New York City, I get harassed by men. They tell me how sexy I am and play with my hair.  One time a man even tried to follow me home. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t like to walk outside alone. I know what you’re thinking. I must live in a really rough neighborhood. But no, I actually live in Manhattan. No matter if I’m uptown or downtown, this happens to me.

When I wear my natural hair, it happens less often. It has made me believe that men only think I’m pretty with long hair. My man has even told me that he loves long hair, making me even more insecure. So what did I do? CUT IT ALL OFF! I realized that I needed to find the beauty within me. I needed to know that I’m still beautiful without hair. I am learning to love myself again, and I hope the people in my life will too.

As most people will tell you, marriage changes a woman. What was once fun dates and butterflies, is now lonely nights at home and planning sex. As married couples change as individual people, it often seems like the man holds all the power in the relationship. A woman can lose her soul for the man she loves, but men will just carry on and live their lives as they please. I’m here to tell all you wives, that you’re not alone. And there are a few ways to get your soul back and take control in your marriage.

Find Married Friends

We all have our friends from high school or college that we still adore. However, those friends might not be at the same pace as you in life. If you’re married and you’re friends aren’t, they probably won’t understand the things you go through. It’s a good idea to find someone who understands marriage. Hanging out with single people can also ruin your marriage, because you will see your friends going out and flirting, living their best lives. You will envy them a bit as you realize that you can’t do those things anymore. Going out every night and drinking is not an option for a married woman with a family. Don’t get discouraged though. It’s alright to go out sometimes and have fun. Just remember what you have at home and how grateful you are to have that family.

Learn To Enjoy Doing Things Alone

As your husband works late nights or goes out to watch the game with his boys, it’s normal to feel lonely. It’s never fun watching your husband enjoy himself without you. The best advice I can give you is to enjoy doing things by yourself. Go out and get a manicure. Have a spa day. Go to the beach and read your favorite book. Keep yourself occupied so you don’t spiral into depression.

Decide Whether or Not Your Marriage Is Worth The Loneliness

If your husband cares more about his career than you and your family or puts other people and things before you, it may not be best to stay in your marriage. Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for working on your marriage and making it last. But if you’re constantly feeling lonely, then what’s the point of a marriage? Marriage is supposed to be a partnership and you should never feel like you aren’t worth your husband’s time. You are worth it! If he doesn’t see that, kick his butt to the curb!

Don’t forget how special you are. You deserve someone who always puts you first.

It’s finally June 12! That means one of my favorite shows returns tonight. The Bold Type is a show about three women working in different areas of editorial. Jane is a new writer. Kat is a social media manager. Sutton is a fashion assistant. These three best friends are conquering editorial one by one.

This show is not only entertaining, but it also shines a light on important topics. Here’s why you definitely need to tune into Freeform tonight to watch The Bold Type.

It Depicts Real Life

You know those shows that are just unrealistic? Think about the older tv shows like The Secret Life of the American teenager. It just didn’t seem realistic. The Bold Type depicts real situations that women go through. For example, Jane speaks about how she never had an orgasm. That is real on so many levels. Most women can’t orgasm through penetration, and I love that the show brought this up.

Also, Sutton was torn about choosing her dream job or one that pays a higher salary. If you live in New York like me, you know how important money is. Rent in the city ranges from $2000-$4000. That’s a lot of dough!

It Educates People

Nikohl Boosheri plays the character Adina, a lesbian muslim woman in New York City. This is huge because we often forget about the difficulties Muslims face in America because of the negativity the media shows. Not only is it hard being Muslim, it is also difficult as a lesbian in this country where people judge you all the time. The Bold Type educates its viewers on certain lifestyles, which is what we need.

It’s All About Women Empowerment

These women go after what they want and aren’t afraid to do so. They are thriving in New York City, while keeping up with their personal lives. The women in this show support each other. Even the editor in chief, Jacqueline, supported Jane when she left for another magazine. This is everything we need in the world.

The Bold Type premieres tonight at 8/7c on Freeform.

My first poetry book will be released this year. I have worked on it for so long, and it never seems perfect. This is my most vulnerable collection and there are so many hidden themes and meanings. In order for you to understand the collection, I’ve decided to disclose some important facts about the book.

1. What’s the Theme?

The theme of the book surrounds relationships and loss. Each title of the poems are names that men have called me. Some are negative and some are positive, but they all have had a huge impact on my life.

2. Are There Recurring People Throughout the Book?

There are recurring people/characters throughout my book because certain people have affected me more than others. My first love taught me a lot about life, so I still value him. Other men that appear a lot in the book are: my boyfriend from college, my husband, and my inspiration. For the sake of privacy, I do not name these men but as you read through each poem, you may be able to guess who it’s about.

3. What are Some Important Topics Discussed?

There are topics, such as mental illness, sex and abortion, that occur throughout the collection. None of the poems are vulgar, but I do like to write about deep topics that may make you feel uneasy. Relationships are an important part of life and they have a huge impact on us. They aren’t always happy. Sometimes you have to read about the dark side of love that drives people crazy.

4. Who is the Book Intended for?

This collection is for young women who need to know that there are other women who have experienced the same problems as them. It is also for the man who takes women for granted and need a reminder that every time they hurt a woman, it takes a bit of their soul.

5. Who Are My Influences?

I admire Rupi Kaur for the realness she portrays in her poetry. She influenced me to write the truth. My mother appears in my poetry a lot because she’s had the largest impact on my life when it comes to men.

 

Losing Myself to Men will be released this winter. I will be posting some poems throughout the year to give you a feel of the book.

I’ve recently gained new followers on my site (thank you so much, it means a lot to me), and I love connecting with all my readers. With so many social media platforms available, it can be overwhelming trying to connect with my loyal followers. So I’ve decided to dedicate this post to my favorite apps that I’m always on. If you can’t reach me on these apps, I might be dead (I hope not).

Instagram

I am on Instagram literally a hundred times a day. I’m a social media coordinator and content writer, so it’s a huge part of my job. If you ever need to ask me questions or just want to say hello, Instagram is the platform to find me on. You can follow me at @ambermosswrites .

Gmail

I know a lot of people believe that email is dying, but I’m a huge fan of email. I love receiving emails, and I check my Gmail app every hour. Send me your poetry, and I will definitely read it. I also love editing magazine articles if you ever want to send them my way. I will usually get back to you within an hour. So drop me an email at amberashleymoss@gmail.com .

Snapchat

I mostly use snapchat to catch up on celebrity news but, I’m on it daily. You can send me funny(but appropriate) videos. My followers on Snapchat are also the first ones to read my content. So follow me at @ayyyitsamber .

Tumblr

I use Tumblr to post my poetry, so I try to check it weekly. It’s not my largest platform but do enjoy getting messages on there as well. Recently, I’ve been getting anonymous messages that really touched my soul. I’d love to know who’s been sending them to me. So anon, if you’re reading this now, reveal yourself please. If you want to read some amazing poetry, follow me at @awritersart .

 

Yes, I’m also on Twitter and Pinterest, but I don’t check those too often. You may not ever get a reply from me. I apologize. But don’t be shy. Reach out to me and let’s collaborate! My readers are my biggest inspiration.